Despite good intentions, my life seldom – if ever – directly mirrors my Christian faith. I believe, for example, that God speaks constantly in and through the ordinary circumstances of life. So, in God’s order, every breeze has its purpose. Every sound has its deeper meaning. Every leaf, every barking dog, and every passer-by manifests unique and mysterious theological lessons to comprehend. Genuinely holding that perspective, it is beyond frustrating that I so often find myself wallowing in life’s mundane distractions and deaf to God’s actual voice.
With a little help, though, I can sometimes experience a breakthrough.
One day, when our grandson “Jofy” (i.e., Joseph) was two years old, he wandered into our family room where I was watching a baseball game. Since his parents, our son and daughter-in-law, wisely limit his exposure to television, he was quickly fascinated by the images on the screen. I began to chat casually with my son, Stephen, just as the inning was ending, and neither of us paid much attention to the commercials that immediately followed. Jofy, however, was riveted.
At the time, the Nicholas Cage movie Ghost Rider: Spirit of Vengeance was being heavily promoted. An ad for the film came on the television showing a (literally) hellish image of a demonic motorcycle rider shrouded in fire. Jofy immediately began to scream in absolute terror. As quickly as I could, I turned off the television. Then, my son and I tried to console our little guy and to explain the inexplainable. I was furious at the violation of his innocence and felt terrible that it had happened under my watch.
I see a bit of myself in Jofy, now five years old. He is a sensitive child, who – like his Buppa – obviously feels things quite deeply. When someone reads him a story, for example, if he finds any part of the tale troubling, he’ll cover his ears with his hands until the offending portion has passed. I find that trait especially endearing.
My wife and I are often blessed to be joined at Sunday Mass by Stephen and his family. Such was the case on Palm Sunday this year; and, as usual, Jofy positioned himself between Marianne and me in the pew. (His younger sister, Katerina, typically prefers to remain close to her Momma, Mikayla.)
Like every small child, Jofy has his fidgety moments, including at Mass. He is never a nuisance, but he often engages himself in quiet play while we worship. Honestly, I enjoy watching him exercise his creativity, whether directing an imaginary jet plane with his hand or deftly swinging Paul Bunyan’s double-bladed ax to fell an invisible tree. He can seem detached from the solemn proceedings around him; yet, there is a deeper truth.
Of course, Palm Sunday Mass is busier than the typical Sunday liturgy. There are palm branches, an extra Gospel reading, a procession, and a dramatic (and lengthy) reading of the Lord’s Passion wherein the congregation assumes the generic role of the crowd. “Crucify him,” we are expected to demand loudly, for example, when Pilate asks those assembled what he should do with this troublesome Jesus of Nazareth.
With script in hand and anxious not to miss my cues, I followed the text carefully as the priest and two lectors read their respective parts; but, my focus, I’m sorry to say, was misdirected. Mindful of the performance, I failed to listen attentively to the great story itself. Meanwhile, Jofy played by my side.
The details of Jesus’ betrayal and death are well known; and, maybe familiarity risks dulling their impact, especially after so many retellings. That particular day, though, as we read about our Lord being brutalized and murdered for loving perfectly in an imperfect world, I happened to glance at Jofy, who had ceased playing and was now carefully covering his ears with his hands. The story had become too terrible for our sensitive little guy to hear. His reaction awakened my spirit.
Marianne saw it too. We both smiled, nodded at each other, forgot about the script, and listened anew to the awesome story of our faith.
Jofy’s ears indeed are beautifully sensitive. May our hearts be the same.
Thanks for sharing this essay Steve. Beautifully written. Have a great week. Take care. Mark
Thank you, Fr. Mark! Blessings, my friend!
Your beautiful story reminds of a recent gospel reading where Jesus says, “In order to enter the kingdom of heaven, you must be like little children.” How true.
I think it’s wonderful that your family joins you at Mass. What a great example you are setting for the grandchildren.
I hope all is well with you and your family.
I learn at least as much from the kiddos as they (hopefully) learn from me. This episode with Jofy was a particularly striking example. What’s scary is that both Marianne and I could have missed this lesson very easily if we hadn’t glanced at our little guy.
Blessings for these waning days of summer,
What a beautiful reflection. I am already fond of little Joffy… now I like him even more. By closing his ears, he has helped us to hear the Word better indeed!
Indeed, Kevin! Jofy gave us all a wake-up call in his own wonderful way.
Peace, my friend.
How beautiful and extremely touching. Jesus help us to be like Jofy. Blessings Steve and Marianne
Paul, I’m so glad to hear from you in this forum, and I’m pleased that you were touched – as we were – by Jofy’s sensitivity to the Lord’s sufferings. Have a blessed Holy Week, my old friend!
I love your musings/stories. Thanks for sharing.
Julie, it’s wonderful to hear from you! I hope that you are enjoying a lovely spring. Thanks for your (ever) kind words. Blessings always, – Steve